A second baby?

It's kinda ironic that after trying to get pregnant from the moment we were married, I am now on birth control.
I keep forgetting to take it at the right time, so have set an alarm on my phone.

Everyone keeps asking me if we are going to have a second baby.

Yeah right, not a problem, I'll just pop another one out in a year or so shall I?
I never know what to say in answer really.
Yes we'd like another, but hey, I turn 43 next month. If you add a few months of "waiting" like my obs told me to ensure a strong caesarian scar, and then fell preggo straight away, I figure I'd be turning 44 when the next one would be due. And that's in a perfect world where I conceive straight away and have no miscarriages.

Is that even possible?????

I love my girl, she is enough, and i don't need another baby to keep me happy. I don't know how I'd even cope with a toddler and a newborn!!!!! (I take my hat off to all the mums out there with more than one child)
But I think she needs and deserves a brother or sister. Someone to hang out with and play with that's more exciting than boring old mum and dad. She has cousins, and will make friends but a brother or sister are there ALL THE TIME.
And of course I would dearly love a second child too if there happened to be one.
I just don't know if I have the mental (and probably physical) strength to deal with getting there.... Monitoring ovulation, 2 week waits, hoping for that BFP and then waiting waiting waiting for each milestone.... A heartbeat, a healthy 12 week scan, a healthy 20 week scan, a live baby at the end.... You know the drill.

So for now I've told hubby we will let nature take its course.... After about June or July I will stop contraception and "see what happens"